not surviving a close relationship

He is an idiot....

That's what I am thinking now. I have thought a lot of times to go away. I´m lacking the balls.
I am so attached and have lost myself for a long time, that I don´t know what to do.
I´m fed up of being the "maid". Cleaning, washing, cooking, waiting....
It sucks! This town sucks! There is nothing to do, and it´s so cold! I can´t  just go for a walk.
I don´t like being in Nuuk, Greenland.
It´s boring!

I am trapped.

I am the last person he thinks about. I am not important for him... So... why am I here???

because I lack the balls to go!

because I think there is going to be a change... I am naive....

It sucks!